when i can't sleep i imagine

my smile is a gateway drug. it's a mask I've grown to wear. There's electricity but no plugs, and the air in the darkness gets you higher than a scare. I can't love because you think i'm a monster. I can't feel because you're too close. They shriek at the thought of compassion, and weep as the soul gets morose. It's more than  a misunderstanding. Its a demonstrative back handing and my smile has been broken. Welcome to the real me. A capsized vessel in a dead sea. It gets stressful in this mental medley. a thousand thoughts per heart beat and you're the center of every. The nucleus . a palpitation's envy. I wanna coast through the essence of your words, and land in your thoughts where i'm safe from the trampling herds. The masses. the visions of panic, chaos and disasters. I wanna escape this global  misery. and scrape through the gravel till i'm resting in your lee.